Pixel Imperfect

arg... why won't he e-mail me back.. perhaps he doesn't check his e-mail that often...perhaps i should've gotten his phone number instead of just his e-mail address.....

Thinking about turning in my two weeks notice...

I have a great sweetie for a friend: lxm: any new developments in your love life? FairiKitty: None at all sugar. Chris and I broke up in January and I've been single since lxm: awwww FairiKitty: Yea FairiKitty: Life can be a bi.. well you know lxm: i'm sorry, i hope you find someone just for you FairiKitty: thanx, me too lxm: yeah, i know. Life throws you a bunch of curveballs. But, don't give up on us guys though! Someone out there is waiting for their princess too! FairiKitty: You are such a sweet heart... thank you lxm: your welcome :-) lxm: oops, you're lxm: geez FairiKitty: lol! :-D

ARRRRGGGG!!! NOOOO!!!! CLAY DIDN"T WIN!!! Not that I don't like Rubben or anything... It's just ... Clay is so much sweeter...

Plan for this summer: May 26-29: NAS Pax, MD May 30: Baby sitting June 1-7*: Groton CT June 27-29: Steubenville Charleston July 5-12: Various HW meetings July 13-20: Home Works Greenville First week of August*: Cruise in the Caribbean *Dates subject to change Hehehe Yay thats like four weeks off of work this summer! :-D Yayayayayay! I can't wait for the cruise!!!

Today went to play pool with Matt, Tiff, and Gid. I think bowling sounds fun, too. I just want some real carefree real friends who I can hang out with at any hour of the day... Like those people you can call at 10 at night when you're home alone and then go hang out or go catch a movie or something at midnight. I just wanna go bowling, ice skating, and hiking. Any one up for a picnic in cleveland park? then we can go roller blading. :-)

I am loving my new Bobby Darin cd and fulfilling my mad hankering for corned beef hash What a wonderful life! "Coz I'm irresponsibly mad about you...."

Look, I don't need a mood ring because inside, they way I felt never changed...

I just wrote this e-mail to Chris, but I'm not going to send it, I decided. He doesn't want to talk to me. He keeps blocking me on IM... I am terribly sorry for everything. I shouldn't've said that because we had a decent attempt at friendship going on. Why do you keep blocking me though? I said I'm sorry, and I really really am. I guess that I will try and understand if you don't want to talk to me anymore. It's safer that way, yea? Well, if nothing else, tell me how you were able to get over someone whom you "loved dearly" so quickly... because I am having trouble with that and I need some help. Oh yes, dear, and tell "joe" that I said hey. I really am sorry, but I can't tell you that I just want to be friends again, because I don't. Don't mistake my words like you did last time. And honestly if given the chance, I wouldn't go back out with you because I can't see the promise in the future if you really don...

Ignore it... forget about it Mary, Okay???? Just forget about it... What does it matter? You can't make someone give a care if they just don't....

Save tonite... and fight the break of dawn... come tomorrow... tomorrow I'll be gone... There's a log on the fire and it burns bright before us. Tomorrow comes with one desire: to take me away. Well you know I'm going away... and how I wish... I wish it weren't so... So, take this wine and drink with me... Let's delay our misery.

NOT HELPING!!!!

Yea..... right... very believable... I'm totally convinced...

The guy that put his hands on you has got nothing to do with me... and the bruises that you feel will heal and I hope you come around... 'coz we're missin' you...

Why why why...... I really need to get over him Someone needs to give me a mood ring...

I cannot believe what I just did.... Ahhhh why... well geez I had to say it that's why... sigh just read FairiKitty (10:13:41 PM): hmmm i'm glad you said that thing about plastic flowers just then Chris (10:14:05 PM): why? FairiKitty (10:14:27 PM): I've been feeling mopey and lonely a lot lately Chris (10:14:38 PM): why? FairiKitty (10:14:48 PM): Hmm how do I say this Chris (10:15:00 PM): hmm...type it? FairiKitty (10:15:03 PM): You have really great arms (hahah, any girl would understand that) Chris (10:15:50 PM): really...i went to the clinic for a physical and they just cut my arm off FairiKitty (10:16:10 PM): I'm sure it's not something you want to hear, but I miss you like crazy, and hearing that thing about plastic flowers makes me feel better (because you don't believe in giving a girl roses for her birthday) FairiKitty (10:19:01 PM): *and a hush fell over the crowd* FairiKitty (10:19:08 PM): Anyway FairiKitty (10:19:23 PM): I had to get that o...

I'm sad and I don't know why, but it's like as soon as I stop going and going ... I just start to cry... I wish I knew how to get over this being sad business... I feel like I'm all alone. I feel like I'm going no where. I feel like I'm going to have to run away if I'm still here in a few months. Over all I just feel... blah and sad...