Pixel Imperfect

I'm feeling funny. I actually ate all three meals today. And I'm sooo hungry. It's 2117, I ate dinner at 1830... why am I so hungry already? And I'm having to pee a lot... I'm sure you care but this is my frickin' diary, so there. Anyway, this food thing is bugging me. Oh well, the food fast is tomorrow. I will eat dinner at 1700, then no more food for 25 hours! :-D Anyway, I need some serious sleep. Somebody tell me why I am so hungry!

just to clarify... b/c there seems to be some confusion (James) the guy that i've been day dreaming over is not enlisted (james). :-) He's a Naval officer. That's why it's a bummer. The hr regs. But does it matter? No. He'll never look at me twice, and they are JUST day dreams. I don't really know him that well. But I looooove his ride ! It doesn't really matter, does it? So why are you reading this? Read the next post. Much more important!

I just went to visit this girl, Amanda, at the hospital today. It was okay. She's in great spirits, considering. See, it was discovered on Monday that Amanda has a brain tumor. It's operable, and her surgery is tomorrow. I'm praying for her and her family.... please do the same...

VikSuper (5:43:49 PM): so, u a good girl or bad girl? FairiKitty (5:43:53 PM): I'm pretty good VikSuper (5:47:15 PM): oh thats too bad VikSuper (5:47:18 PM): i am bad bad bad VikSuper (5:47:19 PM): :-) FairiKitty (5:47:49 PM): Naughty boy VikSuper (5:48:10 PM): do u like naughty boys? FairiKitty (5:48:52 PM): sometimes VikSuper (5:49:03 PM): why do u like them ? FairiKitty (5:49:10 PM): the thrill VikSuper (5:49:30 PM): what do they do to ya? VikSuper (5:49:30 PM): :-) VikSuper (5:53:57 PM): do they touch u? FairiKitty (5:54:25 PM): Know what? VikSuper (5:54:52 PM): what? FairiKitty (5:54:57 PM): you're a super freak! Super freak, you're super freak, yeaaa

hey PJ! My numero uno fan! (as in number one or only one? lol) tell me your screen name! I forgets! luv ya - mary! P.S. Schmegegi!

I thought I was okay. I really did. But I was at the youth group superbowl party last night. After everyone left, Christen, Patrick, Nichole and I stayed behind and we were just talking and stuff. The TV was on and it was "A Walk To Remember." Well, I've never seen it before, but there's this one part where they play this song by the New Radicals. "Someday We'll Know." I heard that song. That song always makes me cry. But this time it was worse. I started crying by the second line of the song and I crawled into Patrick's lap. Actually they all thought I was faking, but then the realized I wasn't. And we talked about guys and relationships for the next twenty minutes. Then I had to go home. It's good to have friends. "Whatever happened to Emilia Earhart? Who holds the stars up in the sky? Is true love once in a lifetime? Did the captain of the Titanic cry? Someday we'll know if love can move a mountain. Someday we'll know w

I don't know who reads this, but I'm going down town tonite. I'd love it if you'd find me. I babysit at 1900. I'll get off in an hour or so. Then I'm going down town. Please find me.... I need someone... " It's a damn cold night trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand; Take me somewhere new I don't know who you are but I'm with you "

I feel that I am everything I think I'm not. I think that maybe I am actually shallow and innocent... but a different innocent. Many who know me will know that I am not innocent. Maybe I mean naive. Because maybe it is true that deep down, I really believe there is good worth fighting for. Maybe I still believe that they are all good. I think that one day, something will happen. And it will break my heart to see the evil that I never knew existed. Something will happen that will blow my mind and force me to forget the good worth fighting for. I will feel betrayed and broken. And it will be so very hard to resuce me.

An Affair With An Older Man Let it flow, let it tumble. Let it ramble and rumble. See where it goes, And see if she knows How to rumble and ramble So sexy she ambles Watch the wave, watch the wick. Watch it flicker and lick. Jump in the stream Swim in the dream Where is it leading? Who is preceding? When they finally realize That it's not disguise She has her whole life He still has his wife Parting is sorrow So good-bye, until tomorrow

Meet Virginia. I am Virginia. I am that girl that you crave. I am the one whom you write about; of whom you sing. I am her. I am she. Feminine Beauty. Perfection. A woman's touch? Yes, that should do. HOW REAL DO I FEEL? One cannot say. It is all a mix of patches and stiches . What if I stumble, what if I fall? Besta not, fool. We'll still love you just the way you are, if you're perfect. I AM perfect! This IS me!

Well, I am sure to make DEP Recruit of the month of January! I typed, photocopied, stapled, folded and inserted into envelopes the DEP Newsletter for the month of January. Chief Calmes owes me lunch! PC2 Jones does as well. Groovy! Also, I ran/walked for about 20 minutes today, stopping every 5-10 minutes to do a few pushups. Hopefully I will be in much better shape by the time I leave! I can't even run a mile straight... I have to stop to walk. I need to work on my pushups too. Oh well, when you get to boot camp, the only PT test is to run 1.5 miles in 15 min(male) 16.5 min (female). And I can so do that. I have stopped eating fast food! I have also severly cut back on soft drinks. I have started eating meals reguarly and healthy meals at that...

oh yea, at the DEP meeting, we were practicing drill and marching and I was standing there at parade rest. Standing very still not looking around or anything ( like the other silly deppers were). You know, coz I know that you don't move you don't look around you don't speak unless your at attention and addressed first. Ha, OS1 Miller walked by me and stared at me, tried to make me smile and whatever. Didn't work. and he was like "man she looks like a general" in that I wasn't movin and squirmin like the other deppers ('cept ryan, who was in ROTC) and Chief Calmes was like "nahhhh, Admiral!" haha ya! Yes, Sir! Anyway, I guess I've seen a lot of it and I know what you're supposed to look like. And I guess I just wanted to look professional.. as professional as I could I guess.. Do you know what I mean? I wanted to look like I knew what I was doing...I wanted to impress the Chief's

"safety is very important in the navy. Look at your recruiters: you've got electrician's mates, machinist's mates, nuclear welders... oh and DK1... well... he can get paper cuts..." haha quote from today's DEP meeting on "Safety" and "Rank & Recognition"

I went to the recruiter's today. I told him that the next nuc seat that open's up... I want it. And he called up someone. It could be within the month. I could be in three months. But whenever it is, I've got it. And.... I'm just ... aprehensive