Pixel Imperfect

Last week was a very weird week. Very stressful and busy. I didn't keep track of any of my mornings last week so we'll just skip that  "Black ops... black ops... dropping presents from the helicopter..." The song gets louder and louder. After 60 seconds it's playing at full volume. I blink my eyes and reach for my phone. It's been plugged in and under the pillow all night. SleepBot has kept the screen dark, but technically on. My finger practically sizzles as I swipe the glass to indicate to indicate I am awake. I squint at the screen. 7:00am on the dot. It's rather bright in my room. I realize that I left the blinds open last night and my apartment is flooded with natural light. It's kinda nice.  I forgot to set up the coffee last night. No, that's a lie. I thought about it at 10:30 but I was already under the covers and reading. I couldn't be bothered to set up the coffee last night. I lie in bed for another 15 minutes swiping at m...

I've come to work to be greeted with a bag of Thin Mints, Samoas, Savannah Smiles, Thank U Berry Munches, and Trefoils. And now I have to sit here with these cookies next to me ALL DAY. I made the mistake of going onto the bakery websites. The troop I'm buying from uses Little Brownie Bakers. The other bakery has Chocolate Chip Shortbread, Lemonades, and Cranberry Citrus Crisps. My god. If I run into girls selling the other cookies I'm going to be in trouble. I really want to try the chocolate chip shortbread and cranberry crisps. Why can't I buy, like, half a box? Or just two or three cookies? Auughhhh. I have been known in the past to eat an entire box of cookies in one sitting. That is probably why I was super fat in college! Entire box of: Thin Mints - 32 cookies, 1280 calories, 80g sugar Samoas - 14 cookies, 980 calories, 70g sugar Savannah Smiles - 25 cookies, 700 calories, 50g sugar Thank U Berry Munch - 14 cookies, 840 calories, 49g sugar Trefoils - 40 ...

A soft melodic tone trickles into my ear. I reach out a hand and, eyes closed, swipe it silent. My hand curls around the phone. My foot twitches. I'm a bit warm. I pull the phone towards my face. My eyelids flutter, blink, squint. 7:00am. The text in the phone is insistent - "Wake up, mutha fucka!!!!" I blink, I sigh ... I doze. A harsh electronic beat pours into my ears. I reach out a hand and, eyes closed, swipe it silent. My hand curls around my phone. I bury my nose into my pillow. "WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK" exclaims the silenced alarm. It is now 7:30am. A tentative sniff reveals my saving grace. There is premade coffee. Thank you , past me . I pull on a pair of socks. I grip the railing as I teeter down my spiral staircase, brain half-asleep, eyes half-closed. A few moments later, I'm slightly more awake, sipping my coffee with too much cream and staring in my mirror with displeasure. "Christ. You're a hot mess." Another sip of coffee...

It's snowing pretty heavy here. (Heavy for Carolina snow...) Sticking, too. I haven't got a cancellation email from my college yet, but it's not like I've left the bed for more than a few moments anyway... As I sit here in my bed with my laptop and coffee, I can't help but think how very lucky I am. I have a job I love (and I actually use the skills I was taught in undergrad). I work from home one day each week. If I cannot go into work for any reason (inclement weather, illness, travel) I am still paid. It wasn't always like this. I had my fair share of wage-slave jobs. Even now I sacrifice a certain amount on income for the flexibility that my job provides, but stress and hours of many higher paying job cannot make up for sitting in my bed with my laptop and coffee, working from home and watching the snow.

I've been journalling (like physical pen and paper journalling) a lot lately, which is why I haven't posted here much. I have things I need to spill that I don't want to put on the internet, that's why. What's been going on lately? November K-Swiss and I split mid-November Thanksgiving with the family Spending more time with my bro. Haven't spent enough time with him. Would like to. Took a solo trip to Asheville Made some friends in Asheville. Friends who are bugging me to return (and I'd like to!) Begin going out to Meetup.com events to make some more friends in town December Lived with some college friends for a week or so Found an apartment (it's a loft with a spiral staircase) Moved into apartment Accidentally lost weight -- how did this happen? Home for family X-mas party. Spent more time with my siblings. Made some new friends. Got sent home with three dozen siopao Had a fantastic birthday including presents and sushi Dec...

I'm working on getting back into a habit I used to have that involved getting to bed at a reasonable hour and waking naturally around 7am. It's a struggle. I'm going to try to start posting how my mornings go here. If I can, indeed, get back into my habit, then we'll also have daily outfit photos again. Day 3: Wake. Brain is confused. A savory scent is wafting into my loft and a curious gurgling sound pricks my ears. Phone declares 7:04am. Did my alarm go off? What is that sound? ... COFFEE! Commence mental argument Get out of bed get coffee It'll still be good in ten minutes, let's just take ten more minutes.  Seriously? Get your ass up. Hey, here's the water your poured yourself last night. Drink that, get up. Soo comfy. And it's cold out there. You left your robe at the foot of your bed, no excuses. Also I think you need to pee. Gorramit... I stretch. I sit up. I drink some water. I shiver. I blink rapidly. I grab my glasses and...